from fat to fit

a theatre student on her fitness journey.

hw: 170
cw:
160 (8/25/12)
157 (11/6/12)
ugw: 110

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Finally.

You are a piece of crap and it is SO sweet to know that I do have the ability to get over you. I deserve so much more than what you gave me which was NOTHING.

It was my fault though, I expected too much out of you. At least I know if I ever wanna stick it and run you’ll be there. Lol.

IF I FINISH CALC BY 8:30 I WILL ALLOW MYSELF TO WALK TO RED MANGO AND GET FROYO AS A TREAT BECAUSE I DEAERVE IT. I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS GOOD THIS WEEK AND I AM TREATIN MAHSELFFDDD SO I ETRAH HURRY

You’re finally in a good place. Don’t let this go to your head. Fitness and your future are your focus, not him. Do not, I repeat, DO NOT flirt with him. Do not give in, do not engage in this crap. You gave in once and used up your only get-out-of-jail-free card, you are out in the open now. No screw ups or else it costs you everything. And you’ve worked too hard.

You are in a good place. He is an assbag, you are losing weight and being successful in theatre, piano, politics, and friendships. You’re going to NY this summer, possibly seeing your estranged uncle?, your best friend of 11 years is coming down to see you for the first time in 6 years. You are Paulette, you finally have your dream role. You’ve waited for this so long and it’s finally in your hands. Don’t let the experience fly by and miss it because you were focused on gaining his approval. You only have 3 weeks as Paulette and then it’s over. 3 weeks to be your dream role. Savor every last moment of it. 

He is an assbag who has made you miserable for the past 3 months. Life has been hell.  And you’ve survived. DO NOT GIVE IN. Even today he was being a sly little slut. Asking about the YCTIWY party, winking, telling me what an awesome girl I am. All because I ignored him for one day. DO NOT GIVE IN. IGNORE HIM. TORTURE HIM. MAKE HIM WORK FOR IT AND THEN DON’T GIVE ANYTHING TO HIM. YOU ARE BETTER THAN THIS. YOU DESERVE BETTER.

You are on top right now. You know all the secrets of the dept, you are the director’s favorite, everything is going your way. Don’t screw it up for one kiss or two.

This is baaaaaad. It was already bad enough and now that life has calmed down somewhat I guess I’m assuming it’s okay to get into this trouble again. There have been a lot of “close calls” but none as close as today. It’s in no one’s hands but mine. I can make or break myself right now. 

Is it really worth it. Is one kiss going to be worth it? To have him try to use you? To have everyone find out? You’ll lose your reputation. You screwed up enough by spending the night with him and you can cover your butt this once. But as soon as it happens more than that night, you’re screwed. Just think of what they will all think of you. Is it REALLY worth it?

JESUS SOMEONE GIVE ME A GOOD REASON TO STOP THIS BECAUSE HE ALMOST KISSED ME TODAY AND I BARELY STOPPED IT BECAUSE I CHICKENED. THIS IS A HORRIBLE IDEA. HE IS A HORRRRRRIBLE PERSON AND HE’S MADE YOU MISERABLE FOR THE PAST 3 MONTHS. ARE YOU HONESTLY GOING TO LET THAT HAPPEN AGAIN YOU IDIOT? THIS IS SO BAD OMG LORD PLEASE GRANT ME THE STRENGTH AND PATIENCE TO SAY FREAKING NO

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Still only following 15 blogs. I’m being picky this time lol. I really want blogs that post motivational quotes, muscles, strong girls, fit girls, healthy food, etc. Not skinny girls, VS models, etc.

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